The Uncomfortable Silence

Do you ever feel
Like you're losing yourself
In this dark misty fog
Of aloneness.

Things precious to you,
Once made your heart warm,
Slowly slipping away,
Like sand from your palm.

Helpless, restless,
I've come to situation, this
So hopeless.

Wanting to cry out loud,
Or least just pour my heart out.
So much left unsaid,
Having done things I dread.

All left with now,
A tired soul,
So certain that I am to be blamed,
For all that went wrong.

Or maybe it couldn't be helped,
Maybe we ran out of shelf life,
The two sides to this uncomfortable silence,
Neither of which I can bear.

Affection

"Do not accept someone as they are;
Love them truly for who they are."

Art of Living gives this very insightful look at understanding fellow human beings.
How we very often struggle with coping with the behaviour of others, how they make us feel, and react. It's obvious human nature that we will not like all the people that we come across in our lives. Because not all will appeal to our level of understanding of the world, in its parts, or the ways we think the life should function. I'm only giving an hyperbolic example of how we think our way is right and end up disliking ppl who do not fit into our category of "right". Reasons for disliking someone can be as silly as inability to use the fork and spoon properly.

But that is not the point here. This line very subtly tells us how simple affection is. The dictionary gives a wide variety of meanings of affection, but the one I'll be using in context here reads-a strong feeling of love or bounding. So when there is a strong feeling of bonding, there is no chance of dislike now, is there?

But we will disagree, because all of us know, that even if we love someone dearly, there are some aspects of their personality that we don't like.
So the difference here is between acceptance, tolerance, and love.

As I understand this, acceptance of someone's bad traits is harmful, because in the long run, we will some day stop accepting. We'll run out of acceptance.
Tolerance too, works on the same lines. There is a phenomenon in the human nervous system of tolerance. When a nerve ending is stimulated, it fires signals to bring out sensation and the appropriate action. When this stimulus is kept constant at the nerve with slowly increasing intensities, the neuron stops firing signals. So the stimulus which initially caused a considerable reaction will now only be a mild sense of something happening. It is the exact samemechanism with us tolerating somebody. After a point, we stop reacting.
So, I quote again,
"Love people for who they are, the whole of them."
No acceptances, no 'inspites', no conditions.

(This is a new concept for me, and I'm still learning to understand this fully. This post is of how I understood this phrase, my interpretation, and my doubt, after a little help from my friend. So please feel free to suggest or correct.)

You are what exactly you resolve to be.

I've come to this realisation that whatever you're doing now, wherever you are right now, is a direct consequence of your decisions. Not your family's, not your boss's, but YOURS.
I've come to realize that what we decide on how our life will be, it ends up becoming like that. It may not always be the best, and we may not be happy, but it always is a consequence of our actions, which is a consequence of our plan to be something and somewhere in life.

I've come to realize that we can realize any dream of ours if we want, and the so-called barriers are just ways of settling for the much lesser than what we're capable of. Period.

Do You Feel the Love?

When your mama brings you food,
Takes care of your needs,
Makes you wear cleanly polished shoes,
Do you feel the love?

When daddy plays ball with you,
Siblings look up to you,
Grandma packs you sweets, and when Grandpa teases you,
Do you feel the love?

Your best friend scolds you,
When you're about to fall, the stranger that holds you,
The old beggar you helped, when he blesses you,
Do you feel the love?

When you chase unknown ppl,
Whilst you neglect the ones you loved the first.
Forget the very first definition of love taught to us.
Why do you not see the love?

When war breaks out, the soldiers that help us.
Natural calamities, the relief that finds us.
Blessed souls who voluntarily better society,
Can you feel the love?

The sects that come together,
In times of disparity.
The incapacity of the governments,
That unites the various strata of economy.
When strength to bring change and hope in us beckons,
In matters that shake humanity,
This is where it is,
All the Love.


Explanatory: When people say there's no love left in this world, look closely. Maybe your idea of what love is, is  limited.

Article for "Life Beyond Numbers"

I've written an article for the website: www.lifebeyondnumbers.com
It's about how one destroys the joys of the present time by pondering over the past or anticipating the future.

You can read it here: http://bit.ly/15Fuczm

If Only...

All that I thought about you
All that I dreamt about you,
Gave me hope, gave me anticipation,
Believed I'd somehow meet you,across the opposite parts of the nation.
I love talking to you, you love talking to me,
We both lead busy lives, we're never where we're supposed to be.
Thinking of this makes me sad,
Couples have dates, not even one of which we've ever had.
I lie to you about my feelings, don't tell you the truth.
Coz I'm scared you'll hurt me, turn out to be a rogue.
Trust me, I think about you a lot, but lately mostly in sadness,
That we don't have what most couples have,
The time, the presence, no lonliness.
If I could only set things straight,
This distance I could break,
If only, I could be there, and you could be here,
Lying on each other's shoulders, as the end of the day comes near :)

The Heartfelt

It was written in fate,
It was written in our stars,
That You'd be known to me,
That a journey for life this, would be ours.

I saw you first, you were my first friend.
You'd chase me around, we'd wrestle for hours on end.
Mischief was never less, the hours together were always fun.
We have so many memories, each greater than the other one.

My first Idol, my inspiration.
You always so perfect, in every deed, in every mission.
You seemed like the best, in everything you put your foot on.
The super achiever, always first in every competition.

The awe of you beheld me,
It was never jealousy, as others would assume it to be.
Under your shadow I blossomed with glee,
But you seemed to never notice, how much I loved thee.

I cried the days I didn't get to see you,
I can never hate you, even though it looks like I do.
I'm told you love me too, I never believed it to be true.
I only wish you'd for once, show it too.

It's getting hurtful, for me to keep this on.
I hate to get in your way, when your life is so busy going on.
Had it not been this tie, I'd never have tried to bond.
But I need to work hard at this, for my heart and for mom.

These lines I pen down tonight because,
You need to know, you mean a lot,
And mere knowing that you care isn't satisfying,
Because I fear in time, we might drift apart
.
So My heart dearly appeals out to you, please care,
Let's share stories and experiences, and needs in times of despair,
Because you're my only, you're my truly,
And you're the only one that I have.